Monday, August 8, 2011

My Heart is Heavy

Life is a funny thing, you think that you are doing great and then one little moment can send you back to the beginning.  A few months ago our family had a rather large shake up, well lets be honest it was a complete overhaul on a level none of us had ever experienced or expected.  It was rough and at times very overwhelming to think about where we were a year ago and where we might be a year from now, but we somehow managed to get from one day to the next.  Though navigating this new existence was hard on us all, it has also made the ladies in this family so much closer and might I add, stronger. 

But then one conversation, one incident, can bring it all back.  I never want to see my family hurt and to know that something that they had no choice in, is consuming them or making their life harder, it kills me.  I want to say that this will all be okay, and that we will all get through this, but how can I say that when I am not sure of that myself.  Knowing what to do, when you have never gone through any of this before, is so hard.  I just want to make this all better, but I can't.  Nothing I do or say will change any of this, and maybe that is what we all need to hear.  Maybe we all need to realize that none of this is within our control and the only thing that we can control is how we react to it.

All I want is for my family to know that I love them and that we all have to find a way to be happy, no matter how this all plays out.  There are so many wonderful things happening right now, it would be a shame to focus on the negative.