A Small Announcement

I have been wanting to make this announcement for weeks and finally I feel like it is time to tell the world... Moe is going to be a big brother!  Yep, we are having a baby!!!!  We are beyond excited and cannot wait to share the good news with everyone.  The baby's birthday is July 7th and we are almost 12 weeks along and could not be happier. 

I was very anxious to be excited in the beginning, so as not to get my hopes up and get disapointed if this did not end up the way that we would hope.  But we are now far enough along, and after seeing the doctor yesterday and getting a clean bill of health, I cannot help but be down right giddy that we are having a baby.  And other than the sickness, the absolute lack of energy and an inability to keep a straight thought for more than 10 seconds, I would say that all is well.  We have met with the doctor a few times, done the ultrasounds, seen the baby growing from month to month, and now we are anxioulsy awaiting the moment when he or she reveals their gender to us.  Names are in the works... Many of which I love and Paul hates, but thankfully we have found some middle ground on a few.  .

I feel very lucky to have so many wonderful people around me to support and love Paul and me through this amazing journey.  And I cannot wait to embark on the many adventures that lay ahead of us.

(By the way, this is 11 weeks and 4 days... But not meant to be upside down, but cannot figure out why this photo will not upload correctly or let me rotate.  I am not skilled)

Beyoncé - I Was Here (Live at Roseland)

I realize I am posting more videos than actual info on my life, but when my sister sent me this... I fell in love! This song is just so beautiful and so very fitting for this last year in my life and the life of the amazing people around me. We are so much stronger than we ever thought we could be and we have so much to give and though it can be hard to stay in the moment when the world is trying to drag you down, it can help to remember that you are only living when you live.

So this is my vow to live in the moment, be present, be thankful and never forget that I am alive and I want to live. I am here and I want it to be here for all the good, bad and just down right amazing moments that we are going to all embark on in the next year and for the rest of this life.

Love to all.

SNL Kardashian Fairytale Divorce Parody - NOV 2011

I just had to post this... Not only is it good for a laugh, SNL was spot on with most of their parodies!

Loves it!

My Mister

I have been a T-Mobile true blue fan for over 10 years and though I grew up on cell phones with this service, I have been wanting to call it quits for some time.  But how do you say goodbye to someone who has seen you through it all... First calls, first dates, break-ups and so many amazing moments that even I cannot begin.  But it was time.  We have been having issues for a while now and it was time.  So last week I called up another provider, on the sly, and switched it over.  I know I should have at least told T-Mobile that we were on the outs, but I am a loser and going behind his back and letting my new friend, Verizon handle it was easier.

And so, now I am a Verizon customer.  But even better I am an official iPhone 4 owner!!!!  And can I just say, as someone who was totally hesitant and against the whole touch screen/finger print thing, I AM IN LOVE!  Someone asked me how I like my new phone and all I could think was that it was like having a lover, or a mistress, but for women, so I guess a mister?!?  It's all I think about and want to do (be with)... It really does feel bad too, cause when people are talking to me, I am really only thinking about this phone and checking out new aps or checking email or facebook.  I realize that this makes me a loser on some levels, but let's be real I don't care... I LOVE IT!

The Road to Motherhood

Now this is not the point on my blog where I announce that I have had a child or that I am even pregnant, it is merely me bringing up the fact that we have decided to welcome the idea of a baby into our lives.  Like all things in my life, I have approached this moment with all the gusto of someone training for the Olympics.  I have purchased a few books, one I might mention is What to Expect Before You Are Expecting... I know it's a bit much.  And I have tons of questions to pretty much anyone that will deal with a lady, who is not pregnant, asking about whether or not they pooped during delivery.  I have already freaked out about the fact that my little Moe will not be able to sleep in our room with the baby, HELLO SEPERATION ANXIETY... Well for me that is!  I feel like I am so OVER prepared that I am going to still be shocked when it happens and all the little moments that happen along the way.

But this is not to say that I am not over the moon with the idea that there could be a baby on the way soon.  I was worried that I would never get to this point, and now I feel antsy that it has not happened already!

Mat Kearney "Ships In The Night" Lyric Video

My Heart is Heavy

Life is a funny thing, you think that you are doing great and then one little moment can send you back to the beginning.  A few months ago our family had a rather large shake up, well lets be honest it was a complete overhaul on a level none of us had ever experienced or expected.  It was rough and at times very overwhelming to think about where we were a year ago and where we might be a year from now, but we somehow managed to get from one day to the next.  Though navigating this new existence was hard on us all, it has also made the ladies in this family so much closer and might I add, stronger. 

But then one conversation, one incident, can bring it all back.  I never want to see my family hurt and to know that something that they had no choice in, is consuming them or making their life harder, it kills me.  I want to say that this will all be okay, and that we will all get through this, but how can I say that when I am not sure of that myself.  Knowing what to do, when you have never gone through any of this before, is so hard.  I just want to make this all better, but I can't.  Nothing I do or say will change any of this, and maybe that is what we all need to hear.  Maybe we all need to realize that none of this is within our control and the only thing that we can control is how we react to it.

All I want is for my family to know that I love them and that we all have to find a way to be happy, no matter how this all plays out.  There are so many wonderful things happening right now, it would be a shame to focus on the negative.

Love.